Today started with a phone call from my chemo nurse to confirm that my bloods are fine and I can go ahead take my tablets for the last week, I think a woo hoo is in order!
Off to the clinic for radiotherapy. Can I make it four in a row of first time bladder preparation?
When they called me in I didn’t fell all that full, despite drinking what felt like litres of water.
The scan revealed I was just a tiny bit too small so had to wait on the table for five minutes, then another scan which was fine. They proceeded with the radiotherapy.
So, no, I didn’t manage four in a row.
Other than that, I’m doing fine and feel quite well. Hoping this last bit of pain will subside once I’ve finished this week.
I am experimenting with reducing the pain killers, I now don’t need any to go to bed and I’m not woken by pain any more, just the need to pee.
I still can’t manage without them but the last few days I’ve managed to not take any at lunchtime, just mornings and evenings. Seems to be heading in the right direction, which is encouraging.
So, my thoughts over the last few days have been about the whole ‘cancer’ thing.
You often hear people asking “why me?”
But I think, “why not me?” What makes me so special that I should be spared the stress and worry that is unavoidable with a cancer diagnosis.
Those of you that know me well will know that I’m not a religious person but I do believe that things happen for a reason. Some say you are only sent what you’re able to cope with. I’m not sure about that but I am sure that what we (Paula & I) are going through now and what Paula and I went through last year, does make you both stronger as a couple and as individuals. It does change your outlook on life and that maybe the ‘live for today’ philosophy that others live by is no bad thing, provided you plan for tomorrow as well, of course!!
As somebody once said, “nobody on their deathbed said they wish they’d spent more time at the office”.
In short, I suppose what I’m saying is I’m just a normal guy, who happens to have cancer at the moment. Today, other normal guys will get the same news and I hope that they are as fortunate as me to have a loving, supportive wife, family and friends because, it really does help to make the journey (cringe!!) easier to cope with.
That’s it for today (a bit deep!), just four more treatments to go, not that I’m counting…..